a place like heaven

im getting married today at 4 pm. dunno if this is gonna change anything in my relationship but i am happier than i have ever been in my life before. just wish my parents and family were behind me in this. i have never made such a big decision that cud go any where. always i have chosen the path of least resistance where i know that i will come out on top. but this is gonna be one path where i do not know where it will take me. insha allah the path will lead me to a place just like heaven. i am almost there...

fallen angels

there is nothing relating the topic to that which i am going to write except that that was the name of the song i was listenign to when i started writing. neede a great topic so i stole that one. bite me!

my sis has given birth... one day before my birthday to a baby girl with chubby cheeks. she looks so much like my sis when she was born :P. i hope i hope i hope i be able to get home soon to give her a cuddle before she loses the cuteness and chubbiness. hehe

i had a great birthday. got some lovely presents from my gf as well as a party so cant complain too much abt gettign old.

i have readings to finish but just dont feel like it. i have to read fice books and i have only started on three of them without finishing any. also got two assignments to finish beore uni starts but just cant seem to get to it. been thinking abt it long and hard but when it comes down to writing it up i cant!!!! so im writing in this blog that i cant write my assiignments. :P

last day of the first quarter of my life

today is the last day of the first quarter of my life. tomorrow i will be 26. it doesnt feel any different i was hoping it would but my life seems to be stuck in a rut. i am doing the same things over and over and im getting pretty tired of it. though there are so many things different about this year. i am living with my gf and sharing her bed. i did that last year as well but then we both had seperate rooms even though we used to sneak into each others rooms whenever we felt like it. this year we are living in the same house the same room the same bed. and no sneakiness about it.

my sis is supposed to give birth today. im hoping that she will wait a bit and make it tomorrow. i want the first person in this new generation of my family to have the same birthday as me. that wud be so fucking cool. though my brother in law's bday is the day after and my sis says she wud much rather wait till then .... hehehehe

heres hoping again...

Song of Man

Khalil Gibran - Song of Man

I was here from the moment of the
Beginning, and here I am still. And
I shall remain here until the end
Of the world, for there is no
Ending to my grief-stricken being.


I roamed the infinite sky, and
Soared in the ideal world, and
Floated through the firmament. But
Here I am, prisoner of measurement.


I heard the teachings of Confucius;
I listened to Brahma's wisdom;
I sat by Buddha under the Tree of Knowledge.
Yet here I am, existing with ignorance
And heresy.


I was on Sinai when Jehovah approached Moses;
I saw the Nazarene's miracles at the Jordan;
I was in Medina when Mohammed visited.
Yet I here I am, prisoner of bewilderment.


Then I witnessed the might of Babylon;
I learned of the glory of Egypt;
I viewed the warring greatness of Rome.
Yet my earlier teachings showed the
Weakness and sorrow of those achievements.


I conversed with the magicians of Ain Dour;
I debated with the priests of Assyria;
I gleaned depth from the prophets of Palestine.
Yet, I am still seeking truth.


I gathered wisdom from quiet India;
I probed the antiquity of Arabia;
I heard all that can be heard.
Yet, my heart is deaf and blind.


I suffered at the hands of despotic rulers;
I suffered slavery under insane invaders;
I suffered hunger imposed by tyranny;
Yet, I still possess some inner power
With which I struggle to great each day.


My mind is filled, but my heart is empty;
My body is old, but my heart is an infant.
Perhaps in youth my heart will grow, but I
Pray to grow old and reach the moment of
My return to God. Only then will my heart fill!


I was here from the moment of the
Beginning, and here I am still. And
I shall remain here until the end
Of of world, for there is no
Ending to my grief-stricken being.